We are spiritual beings.

Children lookin for a father, Lord we're broken up inside.
Homeless lookin for a shelter, may they never leave Your eyes.
Hopeless lookin for a future, only one that You can provide.
Now we see there is no other. Only You can change a life.

I'm reading this book called Healing the wounded spirit... so far it has been life changing. It has brought forth the reality of the things that are deemed unrealistic and and therefore neglected by pretty much Everyone. I see others in a new light almost...and its like I can see others for what they really are..and Love them...and I know its not just because of the book, the Holy spirit is doing His thang and ministering to me.. I guess I'll share more when I finish it and gain more understanding. But I highly recommend it. I think every human being should read this along with the Bible.

Rend Your Hearts

So a few months ago I learned the meaning of rending your heart. It was at my brother's bible study at the full gospel church. So apparently back in the day men would tear (rend) their clothes as an act or symbol of repentance. But sometimes this act was just that. An act. In Joel 2:13 it says

Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

This simply means that our Father wants our hearts. Not works or actions, but our entire heart.
Now I'm just being honest but I know there are times that my entire heart does not belong to my Lord. But I found that self-examination, examination of scripture (and applying it to my life), prayer and fellowship brings revelation and a change of heart. A change where you realise that only God is good. And an intense desire to desire and seek and experience Him more.

Anyway, I hope that made sense. I absolutely love this song by Jimmy Needham. I listen to it over and over and over...

Lord, Make Me Brave For Life

God, make me brave for life;
Oh, braver than this.
Let me straighten after pain,
as a tree straightens after the rain,
shining and lovely again.

God, make me brave for life;
much braver than this.
As the blown grass lifts,
let me rise, from sorrow with quiet eyesknowing
Thy way is wise.

God, make me brave;
life brings such blinding things.
Help me to keep my sight;
Help me to see aright
That out of dark comes light.

Amen.

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Dang...I'm in Love.

It seems that the more I get to know others, and build relationships, the more I see how imperfect we as a human race are. There is no human relationship that can fill that deep longing for intimacy, love and acceptance. That is why I am so greatful for a loving heavenly father. He is the only one that can fufill my deepest needs. He is my everything. This right here is True Love. Dang..I'm in Love.

I gotta be wiser.

I love this song.. recently I've been searching for and praying for wisdom, and knowledge and understanding..There is a verse in Hosea 4:6 that says "my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge". Iguess this prompted me to seek out wisdom. It has been revealed to me that many of my past pain and suffering was simply due to lack of knowledge. Anyway in this song Desree says "you gotta be wiser"..so i thought it would be fitting.

..Booya

Thankful

Today I am so thankful for loving people, friends, mentors, and teachers. I can see now that i have been a bit sidetracked lately...where its been all about me. I started off with good intentions but as they say, Good intentions can never set a man (er woman) free... Its funny how the second it becomes about you there is no longer peace...Its also funny how long it took me to figure this out.

:)

I was so close.

So close. But so far away.
Next year will be different. Perhaps More sacrifice is needed?


...My blogging skills are to be desired. haha..
oh man i feel like crap.